Last night and today bring us to the final moments of Malchut, and it must be YESOD foundational energy that takes us up to that finish line, priming us to actually begin LIVING in a way that is consistent with the emotional freedom we crave.
The crystalizing energy of YESOD prods us, to begin edging away from the ambivalence of “SEARCHING” mode” — gradually inching closer to a place of acceptance and the certainty of concrete commitments —associated with “FINDING!”
This explains why this weekends holiday of Shavuot evolves around “KABBALAT HATORAH” – the “acceptance” and receiving of Torah reflects the primary spiritual thrust of this holiest of days.
Too often, in becoming overly comfortable with our exotic “wanderer” personas, we develop “journey junkie” syndromes — paradoxically leaving us even more anxious about ever “arriving” anywhere!
In this addiction to our uncertainties – the researching of different paths, replaces and obscures the need for actually choosing one.
Just as in the cosmic world of Malchut, G-d relies on his own YESOD energy, “motivating” him to move beyond the abstract notion of a created world, toward laying the actual “FOUNDATION” for one, so too, when we are in Malchut mode, our YESOD becomes the catharsis for moving beyond the abstract notion of recreating our lives, emboldening us to take the necessary steps to actually lay the “FOUNDATION” for higher ways of living.
YESOD of Malchut, is where we have enough momentum to finally transition from “we will listen and then we will do”, to the opposite, “we will do and then we will listen.”
The world of Malchut is where we start circling over the airspace of our destination, and the kind but firm voice of YESOD, intrudes on our reverie, announcing the end of the journey — reminding us to fasten our seat belts and prepare for arrival!
Tonight, as we start to enter into the airspace of Shavuot, circling — hovering, we manage to glimpse, just barely, the faint silhouette of Sinai, as it beckons to us softly, just beyond the horizon.
As we begin to move toward the mountain, toward our collective encampment at its base, we remember suddenly, with deep clarity, that we undertook this journey as our fierce protest against settling for a life of emotional mediocrity, by committing to truly stepping back from Egypt, and finally backing away from living fearfully— freeing ourselves to live fully untangled from all our enslavements, daring to finally claim the meaningful, melodic lives of our wildest dreams.