Lately I have been really into staying clean and organized.
I think that, naturally, I’m a very clean and organized person, but somewhere down the line, things have changed, or perhaps shifted into a different direction.
It might have been the rebellious girl in me that wanted to show those who wanted me to be clean and organized, when I was a teenager, that I was going to be messy if they didn’t stop bothering me.
But, the instinct in me knows that, in order for me to live a more liberated life, I have to keep things in order.
(Anyway, I think I’m wandering off the real subject.)
The point is, I really wanted to talk about how I was throwing this clutter away, but while I was doing that, I came across a picture of a well-respected Rabbi.
(It wasn’t really a picture, more like a flyer.)
Regardless, this well-respected Rabbi is also known to be highly advanced in his spirituality.
I found myself contemplating whether or not I should throw his picture away.
I mean, this wasn’t just any Rabbi, this is a strong figure in the Orthodox Jewish community.
“What if he’s watching me from up there throwing his picture away?” I thought.
But, then I responded to myself, “Anat, this is how clutter becomes clutter, because we give everything value, and we don’t let it go.”
While it made me uncomfortable, I decided to throw the picture away anyway, along with other flyers that just caused my room to look like a mess.
Fast forward to after cleaning everything up…I got into bed, and tried to go to sleep, but found I couldn’t because thoughts kept coming into my mind saying, “What if this Rabbi is the Messiah?”
“What if I get punished for throwing the picture away?”
Eventually, after I had it with myself because I couldn’t snap out of it, I said, “Well, if he is the Messiah, he wouldn’t care.”
“He wouldn’t care that I threw his picture away.”
“He would care more about real problems, not about this freakin’ picture.”
Then I started thinking to myself, “What would the Messiah really care about?”
I think the Messiah would care more about how we treat our fellow Jews.
He would care about being a helping hand.
He would care about the environment, and about the poor cats who are freezing outside.
I just really had to let this out because it was sort of bothering me.
I’m going back to throwing more clutter away.
See you later.