I have come to understand that each one of us has a different God.
Let me introduce you to my G-d.
My G-d is Loving, Merciful, Caring, Present, and Just.
He is my perfect parent, my very best friend, my shrink with an unlimited stop watch, my coach, and my teacher.
G-d is my sanity, my refuge, my happiness, my peace of mind.
When I connect, all my fears melt away.
My G-d performs miracles. Yes, that’s right miracles. Daily.
Some people call miracles by its alias, “science”, but it’s all the same to me. I am awestruck when I contemplate the birth of new life, rain falling from the sky, the constellations, human imagination, and the power of speech. The fact that no two snowflakes or people are the same, despite the countless numbers that have come and gone, blows me away.
The list of miracles is infinite.
I love G-d with all my heart and all my soul. I find comfort and meaning with my G-d.
Some people find this juvenile and simplistic, so be it. I am not offended. I find no shame in being simple and childlike, for it can be untainted and beautiful. A puzzle will have the same picture regardless of whether if it is divided it into 13 or 3000 pieces. The fewer pieces the less obstruction there will be running through my picture and I like it better that way.
I know some have an angry God or a vengeful God or a strictly Just God. I know people who believe God resides outside our realm, one who is distant, blind and deaf to our world. There also exists perceptions of God that are a healthy mix of all of these.
And here is where I will say something that may sound blasphemous, but I intend no such thing.
I believe they all exist….
At least in a sense; for none of us can possibly completely understand G-d on His terms, only through our perceptions which are by definition human, and therefore oh so limited. Our perception IS our reality. We each create a set of rules and beliefs in our world and we bind ourselves to them which in turn becomes our reality. The God that exists in your world is the God you decided to let exist in your life and the relationship follows the rules you prescribed to and is limited to the boundaries that you have constructed.
When Moshe was summoned by G-d to free the people from Egypt, he asked what should I say when they ask what is your name? G-d answers, “I shall be as I shall be” because a name is that which identifies the characteristics of a being. Moshe could not possibly give a singular name to the entire nation that they would all identify with and accept. G-d knows we each hold a perception of Him that is personal and limited, each one according to his or her own heart and understanding. Therefore, G-d allows us to communicate with Him as our capabilities permit.
We all are aware that there is only One true G-d, Who is complete and perfect and cannot be divided into multiple parts. He is not restricted to our finite understanding, therefore, no one among us can claim to have actually found G-d as He Is in all His Glory and Majesty, but we can claim to have experienced G-d on our level and in our very own way. G-d is uniquely personal to each and every individual.
Therefore, it is written in the Bible in many places “His G-d”, for example, when G-d says of Pinchas that he attained the covenant of eternal priesthood because he took vengeance for “his G-d” or the times it states “the G-d of Abraham, The G-d of Yitzchak, The G-d of Yaakov etc”.
We all have our own unique perception of God and this can be a blessing or a curse. I pray we all will be blessed to find only the kindest, most loving, giving God possible and that only good will endure.