Before my freshman year of college, the synagogue in which I was raised moved to a new location. I visited the old synagogue, now abandoned, and when asked in freshman English to write about a personal experience I wrote the following. Written more than 40 years ago, I rediscovered it in a drawer, right before Yom Kippur:

Slowly I ascend the steps of the synagogue.

I remember when throngs of worshippers would have been

at my side

walking with me

ages ago.

The temple has moved to another place.

As I climb I feel I am saying goodbye to too much.


I open the door


as if I would otherwise awaken things better left asleep.

The corridor looks the same, but it no longer leads


for a moment I’m not sure I wish to see…


It hasn’t changed.

The majestic pulpit still towers over rows and rows of seats,

yet they are empty.

I don’t think I’ve ever seen them that way before.

No bewildered children, no annoyed parents.

Gone are the old men who have come to cry

to the One

they know


The giant stained glass windows still offer their mute message:

there are no takers.

The sun continues to shine through them,

illuminating nothing.


I stoop to pick up a piece of paper left on the floor—

a page torn from a prayerbook.

Its words lament the exile of the children of Israel

from their land.  Two thousand years

have passed since it was written:

“How doth the city sit solitary,

that was full of people!

How is she become as a widow!

She that was great among nations and princess among the provinces,

how is she become as a tributary!”

Gently, knowingly, I replace the paper.


I approach the Aron Kodesh – the holy ark

where the Torah scrolls were once kept.

When the curtain is opened all rise out of respect.

Slowly I open the curtain:

no one stands, no one sings.

There is no reverence for emptiness.

The holiest place in the synagogue:

“How is she become as a widow.”

Hurt and confused, I shut the curtain.


I look out upon the seats,

standing where I stood

when I first chanted the prayers

before the congregation.

years of study in preparation

for that moment

and all it meant.

On that very spot my father told me of his dreams and hopes

for me.

Now as I chant those same prayers,

they echo and fly back to me,


and taunting.

Rushing toward the exit, I turn back for

one last


I hadn’t noticed it before. The final tribute to

the remoteness of the past.

On the pulpit hangs the eternal light, the light that is to burn forever.

It is out.

And I leave.



I take a deep breath of the present.

And once again,

the synagogue is empty.

Except for the piece of myself that I left behind.

About the Author
Named the most influential Rabbi in America by Newsweek Magazine and one of the 50 most influential Jews in the world by the Jerusalem Post, David Wolpe is the Rabbi of Sinai Temple in Los Angeles, California.
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