I can’t tell you how long I debated whether or not to post this.
Facebook is the red carpet of social media. But instead of boasting five-figure clutches and oh-so-dreamy backless LBDs, we boast engagement rings and triathlon medals, Happy Hour beers and Utah ski trips. We paint ourselves as carefree beneficiaries, whom life has chosen to make everything work out. We place our successes before a jury of our social followers, and fight to suppress our stories of depression, or addiction, loneliness and disappointment. Because we don’t want others to know we’re wearing knockoffs.
So I debated sharing how after graduation I will be working as a researcher in the investigative unit of Washington, DC’s local CBS-affiliate station.
But here’s the catch. Here’s the pimple, here’s the nip slip, the awkward beauty mark, the lowdown. I worked the hardest I’ve ever had to work. I was rejected 70 times to get to this point.
I’d like to share with you the arduous application journey of landing your first job.
Washington Post Summer Internship — will be notified on or before Dec. 2 Washington Responded: Rejected
NYTimes Summer Internship Washington/New York
The Atlantic Media Editorial Fellowship Washington/New York
WUSA9 Newsroom Internship-SPRING Washington Responded: Accepted!!
WUSA9 Online Internship- SPRING Washington Responded: Rejected
Bloomberg- London Newsroom Summer Internship London Responded: Rejected
Reuters 2017 Summer Journalism Internship New York
WXIA-TV (NBC-affiliate) Editor Atlanta, Georgia
Bloomberg BNA News Intern Summer Arlington, Virginia
Newsweek Breaking News Fellowship (International Business Times) New York
Fortune Magazine (TIME Inc.) Reporter Manhattan, New York
Vox Media Editorial Operations Intern New York
Vox Media Copy Editor for Curbed, Eater, Racked New York/Washington
Vox Media Editor Eater Washington
Google News Lab Fellowship- 10-wks SUMMER Reveal (California), ProPublica (New York), IRE (Missouri), Pew Research Center (Washington) WITNESS (New York)
NY1 News-Time Warner Cable- News Assistant (salary requested $34,000) New York Responded: Rejected
CBS- Summer 2017 Editorial Intern – CNET New York
The Baltimore Sun Media Group- Editorial Opportunities Baltimore, Maryland
Associated Press- Summer 2017 Internship 1choice — Washington, 2choice — New York, 3choice — Chicago Responded: Rejected
Fox News Channel- News Desk Assistant Washington
New York Post- Part Time News Reporter New York
New York Post- Digital Reporter/Producer New York
The Huffington Post- News Editor Washington or New York
WTOP- Part- Time Freelance News Assistant- Washington Responded: requested interview, immediate need, touch-base in May , circled back with email 3/24
New York Daily News- Digital News Reporter New York
Washingtonian Editorial Fellowship (Summer) Washington (send January 1st again)
USA Today Newsroom Internship (Summer) Virginia
U.S. News & World Report Internship (1 year) Washington, DC
NY1 News- Time Warner Cable- Writer New York Responded: Rejected
TIME Inc.- Breaking News Reporter- New York
Frederick News Post — Frederick, Maryland
Buzzfeed- Foreign Affairs Reporter Washington
Mental Floss — Staff Editor- NewYork
Cox Media Group — Associate Content Editor — Washington
NBCUniversal- Digital News Reporter — New York City
Simon & Schuster- Summer 2017 Internship Program — New York
Penguin Random House- Assistant/Associate Production Editor — New York Responded: Rejected
Real Clear Politics- Junior Assistant Editor SENT EMAIL — Chicago/ Washington
Bloomberg BNA — Junior Reporter — Arlington, Virginia
NBC Universal — News Group Associate — New York
Turner — CNN — PM Breaking News Editor, CNN Politics DC- Washington Responded: Rejected
Chicago Sun Times — SENT EMAIL — Chicago
The Trace- Digital News Fellow (Sep 2017-Dec 2017) SENT EMAIL- New York
Penguin Random House- Editorial Assistant- New York Responded: Rejected
CNN-Newsgathering Intern- SUMMER 2017-Washington
CNN- Newssource Intern-SUMMER 2017- Washington
News4 News (NBC)- Summer internship- Washington Responded: Because I am not going to be a grad student, I’m disqualified Responded: Rejected
Investigative Journalism Consumer Reports Summer Internship — Yonkers, New York Responded: requested I apply for their Health Editorial internship, however the description requires you be attending graduate school while interning
CNN Summer 2017 Intern – Documentary Unit- New York
CNN Summer Intern 2017- Special Events- Washington, DC
Mother Jones- Editorial Fellowship (6-12 months)- Washington, DC
Consumer Reports- Investigative Internship- Yonkers, New York Responded: Rejected
Consumer Reports- Health Editorial Internship- Yonkers, New York Responded: She’s going to pass my name and resume onto her supervisor HAD INTERVIEW 3/16/2017 SUBMITTED PITCHES 3/20/2017 Rejected
The Washington Times- General Assignment Health Reporter — Washington, DC
FDAnews — Editor/Reporter — Falls Church, Virginia
Atlantic Media –Production Assistant — Washington, DC
E.W. Scripps — National Investigative Associate Producer- Washington, DC Responded: Rejected
TMZ- field reporter — New York
Bloomberg- Correspondent — Arlington, Virginia
Time Inc.- Junior Copy Writer- New York
Baltimore Sun- Writer, Staff- Baltimore, Maryland
Vox Media- Staff Writer/ Religion and Faith- Washington, DC
WUSA9 — Content Creator/Researcher — Washington, DC Asked to apply by General Manager and Senior Producer. Interview: OFFER!! OFFER!!! DING DING DING DING!!! 4/13/2017
WTTG- Desk Assistant- Washington DC
WRC- Content Producer- Washington DC
ThinkProgress- Investigative Reporter- Washington, DC
US News & World Report- Assistant Editor- Washington DC
The Baltimore Sun- reporter- Baltimore, Maryland
As you can see, I’ve broken the Facebook code. I’m telling you everything Facebook users try to hide. Because after every rejection letter, or worse, no response, something died in me.
Landing your first job is no small feat, it takes an encouraging support system, a tireless spirit, firm self conviction, and a seven month supply of mint ice cream.
To my friends, you kept me sane.
To my sister, you kept me crazy.
To my Bubbie, you kept me sharp.
To my mentors, you kept me hungry.
To my boyfriend, you kept me happy.
To my parents, you kept me in line.
To God, you kept me hopeful.
To myself, you kept me going.