You’d imagine that having the lockdown lifted would be wonderful! We’ve all been yearning for it for months. No more staring at the same faces, the same 4 walls and walking round the same block. We’ll all be free to do whatever we like, whenever we like.
If, however, like me you’re one of life’s worriers, having the lockdown eased brings its own problems and anxieties. How will normal life resume? What if I feel flat and disappointed once it’s all over, rather than euphoric and free. Who will be there for me at the end of it all, beyond these 4 walls.
Being in lockdown all but totally eliminates the outside world, which, in truth, can be very liberating. No longer do you sit at home and wonder what everyone out there is up to. Is something going on to which we’ve not been invited, what’s so and so doing this evening, will we be invited to this wedding or that Barmitzvah…all of these worries, gone at a stroke, because, quite literally, nothing is happening. Being sociable is a big part of our lives, but it doesn’t always come so easily to so many of us. Having a lockdown in place removes the need for sociability and with it, the stress.
Many have approached the lockdown with some degree of trepidation…countless Facebook groups have been set up in which we discuss the unwanted restrictions on our lives. If only we could do this and if only we could do that…but the truth is, for those of us who don’t have very exciting lives, lives which in the main centre around our home and families, lockdown isn’t much different to our normal lives. We can still go food shopping, still cook dinner and still do the washing. It’s actually better in some ways as it takes away all of the additional anxiety surrounding social arrangements.
I know I sound like a sad individual, but I’ll bet I’m not the only one who feels like this, although I’m probably one of the very few who’ll admit to it on a public forum.
That said, I recognise that I am one of the lucky ones. There are those who will come out of this period of isolation with no jobs and no homes. There are those who have lost loved ones and whose lives have been forever altered. This period in their lives will never become a distant memory as the pain will stay with them forever. Thankfully, as things stand, I’m not one of those people.
As one of life’s worriers, however, I don’t think I could’ve got through this period without having something to worry about at every stage and this one is no different. Knowing that about myself, my anxiety surrounding the lifting of the lockdown shouldn’t have come as any surprise. I’d become so used to our lockdown routine that the thought of it no longer being there as a comfort blanket makes me a little uncomfortable.