My “Ah” Moment

My “AH” Moment.

Every so often I have one of those “ah” moments when it is crystal clear to me and   I know exactly why I am living in Israel.  I was randomly flipping through Facebook when I saw this.

This is a link to the swearing in ceremony of Pikud Ha’oref  at the Kotel.

Ok. So the soldiers start singing “am yisrael chai.”   Very nice.  Very sweet.  And yes. We are alive. And no we don’t have anyone to depend on except GD.  We see these experiences a lot.  I’m not being a cynic.  That is living in Israel.  However halfway through the video, you see all these newly sworn in soldiers singing “The whole world is a very narrow bridge …and the main thing is to have no fear at all”

Have no fear at all…

How is it possible not to be afraid?

How can you possibly not be terrified living where we live, seeing what we see, and hearing what we hear?   The terror that we feel living in Israel right now is not a daily thing!  It is a terror that lies within our stomachs  gripping us with it vice like hold and tightening its grip on all of us…ALL OF THE TIME.

How can you not be terrified knowing your children or spouse might not come home?

How can you not be terrified whenever you hear the news, or hear the rumors of what is going on?

How is it possible not to be afraid when there is a very real chance you can end up dead as well?  Every day brings the very real fear that it will happen to me. To my family, to my neighbors, to people that I know. Or to anyone.   Anywhere.

We are living in very scary times, and yet these soldiers…these freshly sworn in  soldiers were  singing with the wanton abandon of carefree youth.  Happy and seemingly without a worry in the world.  But how can that be?  They must know the risks, and the grave dangers they are putting themselves in.  They must know that the statistics as well as world opinion are against them!!

I am sure that the solution to our fear lies in spontaneous songs that burst forth from our great defenders.  “Am Yisrael chai.”.+ “There is no one on whom we can depend on except GD” =”And the main thing is to have no fear at all.”

About the Author
Tova Goldman is happily married and raising 7 great kids. She is originally from Toronto, Canada and made aliyah 18 years ago. She has merited to live in this country and become "Israeli." Today, she lives in a small yishuv that has slowly become her home.