Hi guys I am back and I really can not believe that I actually am here typing and feeling like it is time to catch you all up.
Here I am typing on shabbat.. What in the hell am I doing? I don’t even know considering the fact that I vowed to be shomerit shabbat after this past Yom Kippur. I actually have been keeping with my personal promise to get more into what shabbat actually means (for me) by just taking the 25 hours to be with myself and my thoughts and then I got really lonely. I came to the realization that yes I should rest but not to the point of depression. I was stuck in my feelings about what my life should be and all of the madness that I have been going through since the last time you guys heard from me. As I type this very moment I realize I need to use shabbat to process my week and to let my feelings run free.. So here I am on my old as dirt laptop( feeling a little guilty) that I have had for at least seven years and I am going to catch you guys up..
I believe the last time I wrote on this blog I was buying Vagina friendly lubrication to use for those special nights when I just wanted to have a little “FUN”. I am laughing at myself until this day for the madness and crazy that I have in my life. I promised to be honest with you guys so here we go… AGAIN!
Lets just work back from this point. I have been doing so much. I have become a dance class instructor that involves working with women to just allow themselves to be free through dance, sensuality and music. Before you go wondering and asking if I am a trained dancer I will save you some brain time by telling you absolutely not however my body and soul has through so much healing by way of dance that I have decided to share the love and my personal healing experience with others. As of now I plan on taking a Zumba certification class in the south of Israel so that I can go into health clubs (gym) to teach. I am also trying my hand at comedy. gasp ( there is nothing that I can not do).. can you believe it? Me, Chaya a comic?
I know, I know. You may be asking yourself like what in the world and you may me saying to yourself “she is doing too much.”
Well there is no such thing as too much in my world. Doing too much for some is not doing enough for me. I have survived and continue to survive breast cancer. I have packed all of my life into 3 suitcases and moved across the world to a country for an adventure. In my eyes, there is no such thing as too much. I am currently looking for a new apartment and city to live in. Some of you may remember that I was actually homeless this time one year ago. I had no place of my own. I was truly an example of a wandering Jew. I slept on couches and hotels and in the homes of some of my amazing friends. I finally found an apartment to call my own and it is now time to leave this fabulous beach-side place (the owner sold it). The problem is that I have been working and creating from this space and now I have no idea what to do or where to go. I have been entertaining the idea of sleeping on the beach or getting a caravan but I don’t really know what that means. I mean I think I know but do I really know?
Oh, and I have had some amazing sex.. I mean nothing that moves mountains or creates storms (besides my thighs rubbing together) but just solid amazing sex with amazing human beings that are completely understanding of the fact that I am not ready to be in any type of relationship ( trust me honey they have tried). So lets see.. I was in a brief relationship with a VEGAN SWINGER… Only I would meet such a person. I don’t care about you being a swinger( I so am not) but Vegan? That’s just a little too much for me. I keep a 26 year old lover on speed dial who also is just the coolest guy ever. Sex with a sexy chef who makes me laugh. Oh, I even went on a girl date (no stones left untouched honey). I’m having way too much fun.. Lets not forget me getting an indecent proposal of five thousand dollars for sex ( not my style) from a rich American that wanted this chocolate so bad he was willing to pay for it and even with my back account at a negative as I type this, I can truly say I turned him down ( not my style at all). Any who, I plan to give each of these subjects its own platform soon I just wanted to get my feet wet with writing again.
So my health….
I am feeling so relieved and amazingly healthy after having a full body scan that revealed that I am ( BARUCH HASHEM) CANCER FREE! You can not even imagine where my mind goes when I have to have these types of follow up test. Me being in a new country barely speaking the language is beyond frustrating at times but even more so when I have to go and talk about my health. Thank goodness the Israeli system is amazing with some awesome physicians many of whom speak English and have even studied and practiced in America. My last test revealed that I needed to look at my throat and double check that all was well… I went and had a biopsy ( after they stuck this penis feeling scope down my throat) and found out all is well. So I live to see another day and to have another amazing experience in this beautiful Country.
I won’t hold you guys much longer but I will say that each week I plan to write something small to stay connected with you and to let you know that I am doing just fine and going right along with plans of living an adventurous life. Shalom L’Koolam…. Chaya Lev is back