As a follow-up to Part I which dealt with the shared experiences in grief, I have been “dying” to complete Part II which, in essence, deals with less casual and more authentic remarks.
Recently, I attended a lecture at the Tel-Aviv Cultural Center which dealt with the works of one man, an American Reform rabbi, regarded as the prime authority on dealing with death, dying and grief.
Earl Grollman has written and published twelve internationally acclaimed books on the subject and now, at the age of 93 he is working on the publication of his next book. I hope he will live to complete it.
Grollman has spent more than forty years of his life as a renowned scholar on a subject that too few readers have knowledge and who look to his books as the answer to most of their questions.
Beginning with his first published book by Beacon Press,TALKING ABOUT DEATH, the editors kept demanding more from him. The first book was a wide sell-out success and it was succeeded by LIVING WITH LOSS, HEALING WITH HOPE to be followed by LIVING WHEN A YOUNG FRIEND COMMITS SUICIDE; WHEN SOMEONE YOU LOVE HAS ALZHEIMER’S; LIVING WHEN A LOVED ONE HAS DIED; BEREAVED CHILDREN AND TEENS; EXPLAINING DEATH TO YOUNG CHILDREN; CARING AND COPING WHEN YOUR LOVED ONE IS SERIOUSLY ILL; HOW TO COPE WHEN LOSING SOMEONE YOU LOVE; STRAIGHT TALK ABOUT DEATH FOR TEENAGERS; and SUICIDE: PREVENTION, INTERVENTION ,POSTVENTION.
At age 93, he is still a frequent guest on American national television and is widely respected internationally.
At the lecture someone asked the question of the speaker: “if you had to select only one of Grollman’s books, which one would it be?” She paused for a moment, scratched her head and with a wide smile that brought laughter to the audience she replied: “Good question. All of them. Which one would YOU choose?”
I’m glad she did not ask me. I had read EXPLAINING DEATH TO YOUNG CHILDREN and TALKING ABOUT DEATH. The two books I need to obtain, read, agree with or disagree are LIVING WITH LOSS, HEALING WITH HOPE and LIVING WHEN A LOVED ONE HAS DIED. The latter book title approximates HOW TO COPE WHEN LOSING SOMEONE YOU LOVE.
Koheleth (Ecclesiastes) summed it up for me. “asot sefarim harbai ain kaitz v’lahag harbai y’naat basar”… of making many books there is no end and too much study is a weariness of the flesh.
In the third chapter of his book he reminds us that “there is a time to be born and a time to die”, insisting that the two most important events in a man’s existence are birth and death, both of which are beyond man’s control. He continues to remind us that there is a time to weep and a time to mourn to be followed by a time to laugh.
In his philosophical words I see clearly that following the death of a loved one we are obligated to weep and to mourn. But how can we possibly be obligated to inject laughter into our veins?
Grollman can write books and Koheleth can preach but for me none of these wise words have been effective. Two years since the death of my wife have not ended my weeping nor my mourning. Laughter evades me. I dream only of the day when I can join my beloved and lie beside her in the cold grave which covers us.
Every individual deals with dying and ultimately with death on a purely personal relationship with the deceased. There is not and cannot ever be a universal manner in overcoming grief and loss.
I reject Koheleth’s comment that death is better than life, composed based upon the grievous evils he saw in the world. More important are God’s words to Israel: “Choose good that you may live”.
Arabs and Muslims rejoice at death. Jews mourn and grieve severely during the first seven days (shiva) following the death of a mother, father, brother, sister, son, daughter, husband and wife. For these eight we grieve intensely following the initial period of thirty days after death (shloshim) and eleven months of continued mourning.
Dying and ultimately death are parts of our lives over which we have no control. When the required period of mourning ends and we return to our work we are told by our rabbis to put aside grief and to embrace joy.
It may be good for some. But not good for me. Not all of Grollman’s scholarly books nor the wise words of Koheleth (Ecclesiastes) will change me. Not now and not ever!