Here we are again, in the season of Teshuvah. Many translate this as repentance and look to apologize to those they have wronged during the year. But Teshuvah comes from the shoresh (root) shuv, meaning return. What is the teshuvah or return needed at this time, almost two years into a pandemic and seemingly constant social unrest? We need the Teshuvah of returning to ourselves. Returning to our core selves, exploring them, and knowing ourselves better than before. Our collective hearts, spirits, minds, souls, and bodies need our viduy, pleas for forgiveness.
For all the times we ignored our guts and exiled our hearts, rachim aleynu.
For all the times we allowed others to control our destinies, time, resources, and talents and just melded into a mold, rachim aleynu.
For all the times we ignored our bodies, depleted its resources, pushed it to please others, for contorting, assimilating, and asking no questions, rachim aleynu.
You are our Father, the only true father we may have known, consistent, true, compassionate, provider, and confidant.
Like a tender shoot, we are rising, pushing our heads through the hard surfaces of life. Shine your light on us and nourish us with dew from shamayim. Gently tug at us when we want to withdraw into the shadows. Propel us into the fields you created for us to flourish in, so when our spirits are finally summoned, we can say, we returned to ourselves.
Tizku L’shanim Rabot (Wishing you abundant years).