Take care of you and it is not up to you

CHODESH TOV!

Repeat after me: MY SUCCESS IS INEVITABLE

We are living in miraculous times. In the blink of an eye life happens, and all we can do is keep riding the waves. As a Labor and Birth Doula for 15 years, everything is a birth analogy. Creation happens every moment, and we always have the opportunity to look through the lens of seeing the gift of being present. I am finally finding my purpose in this world, and I feel that while we are alive, it keeps evolving and blooming. I have been enormously blessed in every area of my life, and I see it clearly.

After deep prayers during this amazing time between Passover and Shavuot, I have been connecting to my emotions through Sefirat Haomer. Rabbi Ginsburgh describes it in detail in Wonders in “Insights into Sfirat HaOmer,” https://inner.org/wp-content/uploads/2026/04/All-Articles.Emor-5786.A4.docx,/. We count each day through the Sefirot, and prepare ourselves for receiving the Torah on Shavuot. I am so clear, and last night I received more clarity with a truth I needed to hear: MY SUCCESS IS INEVITABLE.

I have been finding my way in connecting to Tefila, prayer. I am excited that I want it, need it and keep learning that God’s plan is for us to turn to our creator, and we do that through prayer. When life is lifing, I am good at trusting the moment, no matter how hard it is, and knowing everything is in the hands of God. Hashem is in charge and I surrender, feel, and express myself fully in whatever way I need to release tension, worry and fear.

Fear of the unknown makes no sense to me. The unknown is where I feel endless possibility, and that anything can happen. My senses are alive and absorbing what is meant for me. I give all my effort and energy, but ultimately am unattached of the outcome. It is not up to me, and I feel such peace knowing this. To understand this way of viewing life, you have to hold two truths at the same time. Take care of you and it is not up to you.

We have a Godly soul and an Animal soul, and they have to coexist. Rabbi Zajac explains that “we are not meant to be too heavenly in this world, we are supposed to be grounded. The dark part helps the good part not go out of control. The good part does not let the dark part fully express themselves.”

Did you know that Adam and Eve were created together back to back, connected at the spine, yet fully formed. After they ate from the tree of knowledge, they knew each other, and faced each other. When you feel that someone you care about really sees you, that is the connection that we are all craving and searching for. Rebbetzin Chana Bracha Siegelbaum’s course on EmunaHealing teaches the prayer about unconditional love, acceptance and infinite light. These are the tools that deepen our relationships to our families, friends and everyone we meet.

We recently celebrated Lag B’ Omer and Rabbi Shimon Bar Yochai, who introduced the Zohar into the world. When praying for rain he said the phrase “Hine Matov U Manayim, Shevet Achim Gam Yachad,” the deeper meaning is both of our parts existing together. Remember about holding two truths at the same time? Our light and our dark coexist and interact. Even deeper, do not let your brother or sister falter, means do not let yourself falter. Ultimately how we love, respect and treat ourselves overflows to how we treat, view and interact with everybody else. When we love ourselves, we pass that gift of confidence on to our children and everyone we meet.

Just be you.

In every moment.

Open your eyes and your heart to receive the Torah.

Wishing everyone a Happy Shavuot!

Chag Shavuot Sameach