Very Short Story: Your Nameless Sweets
My favorite dessert stood before me, the smell of fresh pastry along with the creamy scent of its cheese. I wanted to have some, but decided not for religious reasons I felt more ardently to observe I politely declined, and calmly and confidently sat down at the table with my family, watching them enjoying it. I remember automatically thinking something negative, but that moment melted away into something else.
I wrote in my book, Better Than You Wished For, “According to the Talmud of the Land of Israel (Sotah 8:3), the world, including the Torah, was made by God with black fire on white fire. The black are the words we read and white is the parchment they are written on, but we can understand the white fire more as the ‘words’ in between the written words. When we look carefully at the actual Torah scroll, we see that there is more white than black. When the Torah scroll is raised for all to see, we cannot easily see what the words of the black fire say, but we can see the white fire.”
When I knew I couldn’t have the pastry, I acknowledged what I felt. Then I decided it was what I call “a closed file,” something that I don’t need to reflect about anymore. I then slowed down my thoughts, which in turn slowed down my feelings, that’s it. (We slow our through by remembering our divine identity).
All of this happened within seconds. My mind was calm and I automatically started to see the white of the page in-between what was already written, gently embracing the words all around. I simply knew there were many good things that situation would bring that were not yet manifested; still to be written in the empty spaces. I didn’t need to imagine everything.
I didn’t force positivity; rather, my slowed-down emotions (which are only energy) had changed into pleasant thoughts. I was warmly and completely awash with pleasant emotions from inside. Within a few days, I was randomly gifted an even-better kosher dessert, and it became a particularly special bonding moment with my family.
Our closest connection to both God and this physical world is when we are in a state such as peace, calm, and/or satisfaction. This aligns with the sefirah of Malkhut/Royalty. Everything in our world fundamentally has energy – similar to the Torah being black and white fire. But Malkhut, by nature, doesn’t have any energy of its own; in her identity as Nukvah, she’s bound to her mate, Zeir Anpin. As an amalgamation of six sefirot he also is a representation of our feelings. Nukvah is always receiving and reflecting energy from him. By calming myself, I aligned myself with Nukvah, becoming receptive to whatever would be.
Zeir Anpin, provides emotional energy that gets reflected onto the world. Initially, the emotion I felt was disappointment, but when I “closed the file”, I opened myself up to transform the meaning of my previous emotions and receive new pleasant thoughts.
The identity that matters is less defined by your internal or external circumstances; but rather, what you truly, deeply desire to repair right now. Only once you recognize that, can you fan the black and white flames of reality to become it.
I have a different short story on other kabbalistic concepts, coming out this summer. To stay updated on my content such as books and shorts, you can also follow me on YouTube: Ora Adarah G Paris
Below is a short, inspired by the above concepts:
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