In Israel, I am espresso and bitter chocolate

In LA, I am a vanilla latte (extra foam, please — oohhh and a chocolate chip muffin! 😘)

I am strawberry margaritas with a light ring of salt, and a side order of fries, (please and thanks.) I am Champagne brunches with my BFF, henna tattoos, and dinners with family.


I am in bed by 11.

I am paperback books and framed photos from my childhood — the drawings my mother saved tucked away, and the diary I hid in a ziplock bag beneath the orange tree in our backyard.

I am reruns.

I am rhinestone flip flops.


I am peaceful. (Sometimes bored.)

In LA, I am home.

And in Israel, I am espresso and bitter chocolate. I am whiskey neat and messy hair. I am catching rides and flying past fields on a purple bicycle.

I am climbing fig trees with my kids.

I am zeros and I am ones, phone calls at 2 am, I am notes typed in the middle of the night — up too late to make it to brunch in the morning– but there’s always time for coffee or a drink, and chocolate croissants with the kids.

I am 18 browser tabs open at one time. I am a teal moleskin journal and a pen given to me at a train station.

I am the woman behind the camera, not in a frame.


I am working, digging, building, and tearing down to start all over, to make it better, to repair and piece together — building a home worth staying in that may never exist.

I am exhilarated. (I am exhausted.)

In Israel, I am am the journey, not the destination.



About the Author
Sarah Tuttle-Singer, author of Jerusalem Drawn and Quartered and the New Media Editor at Times of Israel, She was raised in Venice Beach, California on Yiddish lullabies and Civil Rights anthems. She now lives in Jerusalem with her 3 kids where she climbs roofs, explores cisterns, opens secret doors and talks to strangers, and writes stories about people. Sarah also speaks before audiences left, right, and center through the Jewish Speakers Bureau, asking them to wrestle with important questions while celebrating their willingness to do so. She also loves whisky and tacos and chocolate chip cookies and old maps and foreign coins and discovering new ideas from different perspectives. Sarah is a work in progress.
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