October 7th, My Life

I have to thank faithful Christians, Israeli people, and Jewish people I came to know in my life. I cannot tell the names of the people. However, I’m also thankful for my ability to understand the romance language, Spanish, 70% or most of Portuguese, and some Italian. I was able to read French, but I couldn’t speak much.

For a long time, I have had health problems, and also I had to go through a rough time, losing my second mother-like person in my life. I thought I was in the darkness for years. I couldn’t hear anything. I thought I lost a part of myself, and I also started to think I couldn’t and wasn’t able to do or think for a long time. I truly suffered a lot from losing my second mother.

My grandmother converted to Buddhism when she was in Manchuria. She was an earnest protestant Christian. I myself believe in prayers, and I believe in the Christian faith. When I was in the US, I was spending time going to church. It was Catholic, but I had a lot to think about while I was in the US. My childhood friend, whom I came to know in the US, was a faithful and frugal Christian. She has strong morality, and also she has been in my heart for decades. Her family has been so kind to me, and I feel very lucky to know them.

October 7th made me think so much about the Jewish people and the faith of Zionism, Israel. It broke my heart so much, and I couldn’t request for an interview with the Nova music survivor.

The reason. I had interviewed Mr. Masaaki Hiroi for hours by recording. This was such a painful experience for me. In the end, he told me where his house was. I spent time with him on a New Year, and had a terrible cold. It is hard to ask people how they feel, what they remember, what the went through in detail.

They remember certain circumstances. However, do you ask a young woman, only 20-something, who went through a horrific event how they felt on my podcast? It seemed like I was exposing something I shouldn’t for the sake of the victims.

However, I need to ask people who are able to explain the faith of Israel, Judaism, Zionism, democracy, and more. I have been vocal of criticizing Khamenei for years.

I will learn what the politics were eventually and probably. However, now, politics is outside my scope. There are hostages in Gaza. Hamas and Gaza stole Israeli people. This is an unacceptable and cowardly act. Probably, I’m too furious to explain how I feel on what Hamas and other ISIS-like radical Islamists “which” are holding hostages.

The moment I heard October 7th, it was ISIS to me. UNWRA. Before I saw what happened. Probably, people are not aware of what I did. I can’t tell, but …

I couldn’t believe what I saw regarding UNWRA. It was beyond my patience on what they were doing. The UN is a crime organization. Ultimately, it is not just about who funded October 7th. Of course, Qatar is a terror nation with Iran.

Why they (Hamas and Gazans) were capable of committing atrocities. Why were they able to rape women, and commit Holocaust, the most heinous, inhumane acts in human history?

They (Gaza) are not just UNWRA. There were tunnels under civilians’ homes, and UNWRA schools. I had a conversation with Rabbi Micahel Freund, who was a former advisor of Prime Minister Benjamin Netanyahu during his first term, on my podcast.

I also had an opportunity to invite Dr. Einat Wilf on my podcast. Her analysis made me think a lot on the mechanism of the cycle of cruelty. Her views on the “land” and “return” made me realize a lot regarding what the core and nature of the problem of October 7th was.

October 7th changed my views and also how I have to act in my life completely. I have to speak out for people. I can’t discuss my acquaintances, but the hostages aren’t someone else’s problem. They all have to come back, and I pray for them.

How can I be silent about the Nova music festival’s victims? I was silent for years, but October 7th was the moment I decided to have courage and make voice for the victims and hostages.

How can I be silent about the Japanese media reading out “Gaza Health Ministry’s” data while my acquaintances’ sons are in Gaza fighting against Hamas? Why can I be silent? The Japanese media have Al Jazeera programs on TV. It’s crime propaganda that the Japanese are watching. The public media reads out from Al Jazeera from time to time on broadcasting. I doubt my ears, and at the same time, I decided to talk about them publicly without fear.

A person gave me advice never to be afraid of facing something. I used to do public speaking, and I will “not” be silent on the negligence of the Japanese media and the entire public discussing the shameful propaganda created by radical Islamists.

It was the Israeli people who gave me the courage I have in my heart. I need to speak out for the victims, and the hostages. At the same time, it is not Israel that started this war. I realized that I must not be silent on the Japanese media showing the Soviet-style propaganda by the Al Jazeera program for decades.

I will not be silent. I pray that Jewish and Israeli people have a blessed Passover. I have celebrated Easter in the United States in my youth a lot. I believe in Christian faith, and it gives me a lot of courage. My Jewish friends are celebrating the Passover with their family in the US and Israel.

I pray for the future of Israel.