Once I was Lost

Once I was lost, then I was found, then I got lost again.

Had a bad day,  got in my own way- thought it would never end.

Funny thing, when you lose yourself …  and leave so many friends

Illusions shatter- reality matters and broken hearts start to mend.

I started naively- then I got greedy- no longer could I be led,

My heart became smart, seas started to part- became unstuck in my head.

If you can believe in visions you see while soundly sleeping in bed,

Suddenly awaken,  dreams that were taken- when all was done and said.

So down a path I went,  my mind feeling bent, out of shape bloated and sad

Along the way…tears slowly changed-suddenly I felt mad.

Soon the rage passed, I saw greener grass, I simply wanted to be glad

For the life I was living, the life I was gifted in spite of my unfulfilled past.

Sometime the path we think that we want is never the one that we need

We think we must follow- things that feel hollow- only leading to greed

And the greed leads to need never giving relief-blinding us as we bleed

Until we feed the hole , with our all-knowing soul, embrace the incomplete.

Once I was lost then I was found  tried so hard to play the game

Looking for connection in the wrong direction might just drive one insane

And to be honest, the things we accomplish won’t always block out the pain

The key is acceptance, to be lost to be found, and then to be lost once again

Sharron Katz