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Danielle Sobkin

The Accidental Warrior: Why Me? 

4,000 miles from everything familiar, I sought a new beginning, not a battlefield. Yet, here I stand, an inadvertent champion for a cause that chose me, rather than the other way around. A voice against silence, pleading for awareness, for safety, in a place that promised enlightenment but delivered indifference.

“Why me?” This question, a relentless echo in the quieter moments of night. Surrounded by the invisible yet palpable weight of death threats, I find a bitter irony in the reality that has unfolded around me. It’s a stark contrast to the anonymity I envisioned in this chapter of my life.

The irony of my introversion is not lost on me. My Myers-Briggs results peg me as an ISTJ—yet, it’s the ‘I’ that everyone debates. “An introvert? Impossible,” they argue, seeing only the facade of advocacy I wear. But beneath lies a deeper, more pressing contemplation: If I shy away, who will step into the breach?

The silence in response is deafening. Friends, family, the broader community I once leaned on—none can stand in my stead. This fight, it seems, is mine alone; a solitary figure against a backdrop of systemic apathy and ancient prejudices reborn in modern guise.

To think, those from my past would laugh at the notion of me, of all people, as an activist. “Unimaginable,” they’d say. I was not the child with fists raised in defiance or the teenager rallying the masses. No, I was content in the shadows, a spectator to the world’s dramas, not a participant.

Yet fate, it seems, has a sense of irony. From an unwilling participant to a figure of national, even international, advocacy, I’ve been thrust into the limelight. My conversations now span the gamut from university leaders to national news platforms, from quiet, introspective dialogues with fellow students to impassioned speeches on global stages. Each interaction, each story shared, reinforces a startling truth: the most impactful leaders are those who never sought the mantle.

This narrative isn’t just my own; it’s a mirror reflecting a broader, more universal struggle. It’s about the power of standing firm in the face of adversity, about finding your voice when silence would be simpler. 

In a recent conversation with my friend Hannah, she asked me, “Dani, do you even want to be doing this?” Her question referred to the mundane task of creating a spreadsheet tracker. Yet, her words unwittingly cut through to something much deeper.

I thought back to the day I graduated from high school, the sense of eagerness to leave my hometown, which had been my world for 17 years. My Jewish identity, which I viewed as merely a background detail, something I hoped to sideline in the new chapter of my life on campus. I remembered my closest friends from high school, several of whom were Arab, and how our bonds frayed and snapped the moment I began to speak out. The pain of those losses, the stark realization of being discarded for embracing and asserting my true self, weighed heavily on me.

And as I mulled over Hannah’s seemingly innocuous question, a profound truth settled within me. Despite the hardships, the isolation, the battles I never anticipated fighting—there’s nothing else I’d rather be doing. This path, with all its thorns and shadows, has also been illuminated by moments of clarity, purpose, and profound connection.

Yes, I didn’t sign up for this. But given the choice, knowing now the cost of silence, the weight of indifference, and the value of standing up for one’s identity and beliefs—I wouldn’t have it any other way.

I’m an accidental warrior, the champion born of circumstance rather than choice. And to those like me, know that in your solitary fight, you are not alone. We didn’t sign up for this. Yet, here we are, at the forefront of change, pioneers on a path we never chose. But choose us it did, and in that choice lies our power, our opportunity to make a difference. For in the end, if not us, then who?

About the Author
Danielle Sobkin is a student at the University of California, Berkeley pursuing a double major in Data Science and Economics. With a deep connection to the global Jewish community, she has served on the Hillel International Student Cabinet (HISC) and works as a Data Scientist with Jewish on Campus (JOC). As the daughter of Soviet refugees and a first-generation student, Danielle draws inspiration from her unique background and aims to connect with others through her writing. She is passionate about conveying the importance of Jewish Joy in everyday life and creating a more inclusive and understanding community.
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